Yesterday was Valentines Day.
It also happens to be my husband’s birthday.
To me, that makes it the day I get to celebrate the two most important things in my life.
And our Love.
I don’t usually write about him here…because he’s not the kind of man to broadcast his life to the world.
But this one is for you, Kirby.
I want the world to know that I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.
Because I am…because of you.
How do you describe the kind of man who makes you feel like the Queen of his universe?
Who fights for me daily, loves my broken places and pieces my dreams together with his calloused hands.
Who gentles the wild in me and quiets the chaos,
all while celebrating my passion and spirit.
How do I begin to explain someone who has more of myself than I do locked in his heart?
Whose soul seems interchangeable with my own?
Who lights up every room when he walks in, just because his presence fills the empty places in me?
He is everything I love,
more than I need
and all I’ve ever wanted.
I adore him.
Without him, I wouldn’t be me.
He’s my best friend, my safe place; my Lover and my Home.
He has taught me to be brave, to be honest and to be free.
Every single day he makes the choice to love, and because of that he is the rock I know will never crumble beneath me.
His love does not depend on what life brings us or what I can offer in return.
It doesn’t ebb and flow with the tides of change that seem to be so constant in our lives.
It’s been a decade of Love.
We’ve laughed together through our favourite movies and sang our favourite songs.
We’ve done marathon movie nights together, played sexy date night games together, ate too many gummy candies together and driven too many long hours together.
We’ve spent hours planning, waiting, dreaming and praying our daughters into our lives.
We’ve crawled on our rooftop and laid beneath the stars.
We’ve been stuck in Mexico together, listening to the huge waves crashing on the shore as we slept in our seaside palapa.
We’ve created a child together and you were the one by my side staring in awe and amazement as he entered the world, a beautiful testament of the two of us, forever entwined by this tiny one.
We’ve sat in comfortable silence together and screamed side by side down the dip of a huge roller coaster together.
We’ve stared in exhausted, shell shocked silence at each other at the end of a long day.
We’ve given away our hearts and cried together as we said goodbye to the first little child who made us parents.
We’ve slept crammed on a single size hospital bed and rotated through bleary night time feedings.
We’ve sat together by the bedside of a tiny little boy fighting for his life and took turns stroking his trembling body.
We’ve talked late into the night, tangled in each other’s arms and hearts.
We’ve knelt together in front of the toilet, you holding my hair as my body hurled every last ounce of strength from me.
All the best and probably worst moments of my life have been with you.
I love doing life with you, Babe.
You are an incredible man.
Thank you for all the times you give your heart, your space, your time and your love to me and our children.
Thank you for creating a home for us that is safe, fun and so full of love.
Thank you for working so hard to provide for us and for letting me stay home to be a mother to our children.
Thank you for loving me even when I am so unlovable and for being proud of me even when I fail.
Thank you for leading me and our children closer to Christ through your life and example and for guarding His presence in our home with courage and zeal.
Thank you for riding this crazy roller coaster we call life with me and for throwing your hands up alongside mine while we careen out of control!
I love you more than I can ever say!